everything is progressing so fast, you are "growing up" faster than you can adapt, and sometimes, you just wan to stop time, and get cuddled up by someone like you are a child again...and hear soothing and comforting words by your ears, instead of the "teen prep talk"...

I am giving up on dancing and singing liao...coz i juz realised how stupid i was, to think that my mum would let me pursue my dream of being a singer....all i was was a dreamer...it would never happen...well, my dream is over...OVER!~ she only allows me to do what SHE WANTS and not what I WANT...DOES SHE EVEN KNOW THAT I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AND TALK TO MYSELF IN THE TOILET, JUZ TO FEEL LESS LONELY AND FEEL ACCEPTED?

SHE FREAKING HELL DOES NOT KNOW.....MY LIFE SUX MORE EVERYDAY....I USED TO LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEXT DAY, BUT NOW? I DUN....

I finally know who my real friends are, who are the best, great and who are just simply AWESOME!!! I also know now who are those that are not faithful, have attitude problem, and just plain piss me off "friends".Why was I so blind beore? I was hurt by the second type of "friends" for so long and now...i have no more patience....I AM PISSED!! I promised not to lost my horrible temper this year...but it seems to be impossible now...Dun make me angry...trust me. I have a really bad temper...

But, on the bright side, i have AWESOME and AMAZING friends with me....thxx to the following AWSOME ppl: Wang Lu, Ji Min(especially these two!), rose and fadhlina.

I M FREAKING PISSED!!!!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ALL THOSE CUTE AND INNOCENT CHILDREN? THEY ARE TURNING INTO MONSTERS~ 2DAE AT TUITION, COZ I NEEDED TO TALK TO TEACHER OUT SOMTHING,SO I PACKED MY BAG AFTER THE REST OFFMY TUITION CLASSMATES LEFT, THEN THIS PRI 4 BOY HE SCOLDED ME VULGARITIES JUZ BCOZ HE WANTED TO SIT AT THE SEAT I WAS SITTING AT. i MUTTERED UNDER MY BREATH"FREAK!~" THEN HE STARTED CALLNG ME F*** AND HE CALLED MY PARENTS TOO...WTH!~ DID HE JUZ USED THE F WORD ON ME? I WAS FREAKING PISSED AND MY BLOOD WAS BOILING. I WOULD HAVE WHACKED HIM TO DEATH IF I COULD, BUT I CONTROLLED MYSELF AND GAVE HIM MY FIERCEST GLARE. HE GREW SUBDULE, BUT IF I COULD, I WOULD HAVE WRUNG MY HANDS AROUND HIS NECK AND STRANGLED HIM TO DAETH. IF HE WAS MY BROTHER, I WOULD HAVE HIT HIM TILL HIS BONES BREAK AND DISLOCATE. HOW DARE THAT PUNK INSULT ME....HE IS BANGING ON DEATH'S DOOR MAN.
I CAME HOME AFTER THAT AND WAS FREAKING HUNGRY AND YOU KNOW WHAT I FOUND IN THE KITCEN? BREAD.....I HATE THE BREAD, WHICH HAS VEGETABES ETC IN THE MIDDLE LIKE SUBWAY. I DIDNT WANT TO EAT....GOT SCOLDED MY PARENTS.....WTFH!~

I MADE A NEWLY ENFOCED STATEMENT,

LIFE OFFICIALLY SUX

!~

I dun really like jong hyun, but since he was 2daes hot topic......so HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!!! HAHAZZ!!!!

Anyways, 2dae had sports dae and it was tiring....i was screaming like mad and i won 3rd for high jump...and to vinny, congrats on all ur medals!!!!! <3

Well....the title has no relation to wad m goin to say.....but so many things had happen in the past few days....too many to list...it was quite a buzy week and stressed i may be, but i always have the CRAZY! JOVIAL! and GREAT! 1e2 wif me always....thxx 1e2...... i have kida felt that i had made the right choice transfering to tkgs....no offence to my esties at phs.....but i find tkgs more me......i m weird.....i noe......but past few daes i had been extra mad over K-POP.....ft island, ss501, u-kiss....i noe u all in 1e2 are either freaked out or juz think i m nuts....which i m......but sry....juz bare wif me.....coz that is how i "relief my stress and focuz it on other components so that i wun go mad over my stress" if you dun understand, dun worry...coz i really have no idea wad i m talking bout.....i wana slp liao....eyes are closing soon....i having BAD sore throat and slight fever....thurs hav sports dae.....MUZ NOT GET SICK....OH YAH! i high jump get third in the whole sec one level leh.....hahazz... i managed to cross 112cm but not 114cm....DAMN! haiz sian lah....kay lah....i go slp liao.....but a last quote b4 i go......

I m trashed, crushed and pounded into liquified mince meat....i dunno why....juz feel so crest fallen....even ft-island, u-kiss and ss501 picture, shows and songs cant seem to cheer me up.....what is wrong wif me?


bye bye!
I feel so damn tired that i have no idea what is my main topic bot....i juz keep typoing words which appear in my head....thats why my post has no relation to my tilte.....


OH YES!!!! b4 i forget...... If i happen to muss out any of my "Lovers'" b-daes or post happy birthday later, sry....coz i may forget or i may be to busy that dae....plz understand....thxx


P.S
"Lovers'" as in K-POP artists....thxx





Hanjing<3


Oh!Oh!Oh!Oh! Oppa Saranghae!(frm oh! SNSD!)

I am having insomnia for the past few days (bout 6-7 daes liao)...could not slp, vry tired but cant seem to fall asleep, I M DAMN PISSED N TIRED coz of that and if I offended anyone for the past few daes...i m vry sorry. I m oso vry sorry for being so lagg for the past few daes...


Why do we have brothers? They are just pests and they dun let you live ur life to the greatest...example, late in the morning and you have to be late too, coz dad is fetching both of you...Yupp...tat happened to me and summore, he forgot to bring his floorball socks and contacts and he called dad, dad was angry wif him, coz he was vry sla-gay and scolded him over the phone...my dad practically shouted so loud that the blocks around could hear. At that time, dad was at home lah...at that time i was starting to fall asleep FINALLY...then i was awoken n cannot go back to slp...